Your music definitely has that element of doubt in it.
Confusion. Sixes and sevens all day… because you wanna believe that there’s somebody listening or watching or protecting you. If it’s the other way then that means anarchy. If everybody starts figuring out that there ain’t nothing out there but us, then the law would probably go out the door and it would just be everybody for themselves. Protect your own, your family, with all the ammunition and the firepower you have. That’s the nightmare. What if it’s just that? Then we may have that day where we’re in our front yards with all our AKs and SKs trying to keep the demons out of our front yard and away from our loved ones. The higher power is what we hope for because we don’t want that.
You have a very psychological aspect to your lyrics – almost like a Scarface. Do you have a psychologically troubled past?
I would say a lot of stuff in my past got me to think the way I think. My pain comes from my mom, cause she’s been sick all my life – epilepsy, lupus, pancreatitis. There will always be that pain of being away from my children. I open myself up for my fans, I think that’s what they love about me. I wish I didn’t have to talk about stuff like that, but what would Tech N9ne be without a song like “This Ring” or “The Rain” or “Tormented” or “Psycho Bitch” – the actual stuff I went through that wasn’t light – the darker side of life. I don’t know, maybe I’d be Soulja Boy or something. But that’s what made Tech N9ne – that pain and that energy.
It seems like what a lot of artists say is real is not real. I think being real is having that doubt and uncertainty.
Everybody’s reality is different. My reality is different from your reality everyday. My reality is getting up sometimes at 2 o’clock, going to the studio… I might supposed to be at the studio at 2 o’clock but woke up at 2 o’clock, so I might get there at 3: 30. Then I might stay in the studio till midnight, leave, go home and call the stripper that gets off at 2:30, fuck till 6 o’clock in the morning, wake up, kick her the fuck out and start writing the shit I was supposed to write the night when I was fucking her to record in the studio the next day. That might not be your reality. That’s one of my realities. I have a three dimensional life – I have my rap life and I have my life with my mom and my children over here. I’m trying to be a father over here, I’m trying to be a son over here, and I’m trying to be this crazed rock star in the middle, you know what I’m sizzlin’? I’m all those in one and that makes for beautiful music.
I heard that you didn’t want to do a reality show even though you thought it might make you more famous. Stories like that make it seem like it would be hella entertaining.
It would be entertaining and that’s why my dudes are all for it. But I know what the fuck I do on tour, and I didn’t want my little girls to see some chick suckin’ my dick, man… cause that’s what they’re gonna see. [Turns to his publicist] Sorry Megan. But that’s what they’re gonna see. They’re gonna see me close the door and hear a lot of stuff, you know what I’m sayin’? And that’s why I was worried, because I have a need to be real. So if somebody wanted to show me that she appreciated my show and she’s wonderful and I know her, maybe she’d get to suck on me. That’s what the reality show would show. So I’m like “damn, I don’t know if I wanna show that.” Like Flavor of Love – I really don’t want my kids or my girl to see me kissing 30 women. What’s that gonna make them think of me? So that’s where my head was at. Maybe we’ll do a reality show on something else. But my tour? Damn…
Aside from that though, would you even want to be that famous?
I want my music to be worldwide, man – that’s what we’re doing. Fame comes with that. I can’t go nowhere as it is right now. So with me giving my music to the rest of the world, fame is gonna come with that and I’ll accept it. I have to. I love the people that take the time to go out and buy my albums. I get to write my life and they pay for it. That’s a blessing. So if extreme fame and superstardom come with that then so be it. My quest is to get [my music] to the rest of the world. Everybody should know me. that’s how I feel.
Mixtapes aren’t really your thing. Why is that?
Well I like doing original music. The Tech N9ne collabos – things that we do like that – those are my mixtapes. Now I hear that we might be working with DJ Skee to do our first mixtape, so we’ll see. I can do ‘em. I can murder other people’s beats and show ‘em how we do it, know what I mean? Till then we do the Tech N9ne collabos. That’s my mixtape.
Have you ever thought about quitting?
Yeah, I thought about quitting after Killer. That’s why I gave everybody so many tracks with the double album. After Killer I had no more ideas. If you’re like us, and you’re doing something that’s so beautiful and only a handful of people are getting it, and I love the fans that are getting it… I got frustrated. I was like “you muthafuckas ain’t gettin’ it. Why am I wasting my time giving you all this elite shit and nobody’s getting it like I think they should.” I want the rest if the world to get this shit, you know what I’m sizzlin’? That’s why I wanted to quit – just BOOM, be the exec and let Chris Callico and Kutt Kalhoun take that torch and just go. I thought I could do it with Killer. But then Sickology 101 came. Now KOD is coming. Music is in my blood. It’s in my veins and it’s in my soul. So here I go.
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